Sixty

Thanks for well wishes!

I’m only alive because of her. I was and will continue to try in her honor no matter what. She’s not dead and there’s no bad blood, she’s just the most extreme version of someone who sets themselves on fire to save other wretches like me. She completely ruined herself 8 months ago to help someone.

2024 was all physical and emotional pain for me. Guess who found out they’re Celiac and lost their broken af unrecoverable soul mate? Meeee! Woo…

So after getting misdiagnosed a bunch and having a completely fucked esophagus I’ve been exclusively focused on healing. The progress on that feels fucking fantastic after 2 years of slowly worsening chronic pain and unresponsive to habit changes, drugs, and diet changes to combat GERD. I just had to find out (on my own, no thanks to my doctors) my immune system was attacking my intestines and stomach/esophagus lining because I ate gluten, duh! Also my esophagus wouldn’t heal until I quit smoking. Oh and I found out I have hemochromatosis from the blood work too, so that’s nice.

I’ve been scared straight and I’m at an ideal body weight as a consequence too. Fasting helped healing immensely by just not using my digestive system for awhile. All around I’ll be fit as a fiddle year end, and in better shape than I’ve ever been since my teenage years. Purely out of fear of dying in agony! Wow!

After this horrible arc, I can work on my social life left in shambles by covid. I went nuts and recovered barely, my lover went nuts slowly and didn’t recover eventually, I lost friends some slowly some rapidly to right wing grifters, and just more mental health crash outs. Bad times. Went from 7 friends, 4 of which I hung out with weekly, to 2.5 I barely see. The busy guys I can maybe see once a month are what’s left and one of them was part of a friend group that’s dead and gone, and isn’t comfortable hanging out 1 on 1. Anxiety thing, but we’re not close as a consequence and that’s a doomed relationship.

My best friend is now my roommate and I consider him family now. He’ll probably also be married soon, but we’re staying together with a +1. Probably for life, so that’s nice. Not nice is why he’s with me but that’s a long story. The short of it is he’s autistic enough to be on disability, and his mom is a narcissist abuser that became too much. You’ll see the two cats he came with posted sometimes. All three of them are rescues :p I needed the company anyways.

So that’s my rest of 2025 goals: Social life. Idk about romance just yet. I’m tired, boss.

That’s it. Hopefully not too long winded. Mobile fat thumb edits.

Context first:

Canadian and I’m high more often than not, so this will be biased. I didn’t really vote to legalize exactly, it was just part of a campaign that promised voting reform. Only one of the two happened :( I didn’t use weed previous to Justin’s legalization campaign.

That said, I’m pro decriminalization of everything for the end user, and almost all manufacturing for most drugs except the notorious ones wreaking havoc in society. Opioids and meth mainly.

I do think we need to consider unwillful sobriety centers for these specific types of extremely damaging addicts, but that’s a tough conversation society needs to have that it won’t. Ideals over reals. They suffer in the street causing havoc and ruining public transportation all the same meantime. Then you have the Cons basically wishing them to die ignored in an alley without any aid at all and getting in the way of any action. Getting off topic here.

Question for those of you living in a country where marijuana is legal. What are the positive sides, what are the negatives?

Positives:

Not sending functional or good enough people to prison for dumb cruel reasons.

The big fear was the youth smoking more over time didn’t materialize.

Freedumb!1! I like vaping THC quite a lot, selfish positive :)

Cons:

Mainly it’s a few glaring flaws in the Liberal Party rollout. There’s still government enabled social stigma.

Given not a word was said about it in our recent election that I heard about, I’m pretty sure weed being legal is a complete non-issue for pretty much everyone voting except the nutters like MADD. Yet politicians are still afraid to finish the job properly.

Apt name calling themselves MADD, but I don’t mean what it stands for. Treating weed like alcohol for a DUI isn’t scientifically backed and it’s puritan/prohibition minded moral panic theatrics. Then there’s the fact you can still get fired for smoking on a weekend off work if your boss drug tests you week(s) later. That’s fucking bullshit.

Basically I just follow the data. Minimum age is too low. Getting high is bad for developing brains, I think it shouldn’t be legal to consume until the brain is done development. Age 25. That’s unpopular, I don’t care. I say the same for alcohol. That’d also kill most of the alcoholic binge drinking party culture, because 25+ hangovers and being out of grade school/college.

If you could go back in time, would you vote for legalising again? Does it affect the country’s illegal drug business , more/less?

Sure I would. It’s been fine.

Big dent, not totally dead. I mean we can grow our own too. Black market is still cheaper, but they’re not selling me 510 carts. I don’t smoke weed anymore it’s disgusting. Smell, smoke, tar, cleaning, bleh. Vape. Dry toaster vape instead if scared of glycol. That works well and I used to, but it’s pretty wasteful/inefficient for a chronic user I find compared to 510 carts. Plus I can control dosage way easier. I hate being too stoned by accident. I couldn’t do this when it was illegal, so my bad habit is made a little less harmful made legal. I got options now.