Be glad you actually realized it and we even have this chat. And this is beyond bullying, this is top-level-abuse and shows all the usual signs of manipulation and gaslighting. Can’t repeat it often enough: keep the fuck out of their reach. forever. Physically at least, mentally they will probably live rent-free in your head for a while longer (but you will learn to make peace with, or, at least, cope with it). It might sound trivial, but one of the simplest and best rules in (social) life is: Keep toxic people out of your life. Period. Even if it’s blood. Or especially if it’s blood. Make your own family out of friends and soulmates. If you ever have the feeling someone might not be good for you, he most likely isn’t. Fuck this person and move on. You’re only here once, why waste it with some ass-clowns that don’t even care about you?
I’m sorry you had/have to go through all this, noone deserves such treatment. But hey, you made the first step and this is the most important one. Acknowledging there even IS a problem. And you even acted upon it.
And one for the road: Being autistic doesn’t make you weird. It, at best, makes you slightly deviate from the baseline of normality. And that’s what makes people actually interesting, not boring run-of-the-mill-copycats with no own opinions. But this is just my misanthropic point of view :-)
Sure. Just don’t pay. I listen to some very questionable or morally disgusting songs because I like the music. And I personally never care for the author’s life story. I don’t ask who builds my car either.